†POWERLESS INSANITY†

the third time I went to the biggest rock music festival in indonesia called “Java Rockingland” its my first concert date for me and my boyfriend i was wearing blue open shoulder plain blue top with cropped shorts.I got there in evening at 6.The first show I’ve seen is seringai my boyfriend just ran away to one of those stages actually there were 7 stages or more in that event which was placed at the ancol beach coast,so beach wear are recommended there to avoid the heat of crowd and for freely move your ass in crowds. Unfortunately we got there at the last 2 songs,then we were going around looking for another stages but the bands arent interesting,so we decided to sat in front of the biggest stage and watching the preparation of pas band then a woman from Jack Daniels came to us.here was the conversation:

JackDwoman: dear,do you know the band called blood red shoes?

me:yeah,I came here to see them

JackDwoman: whoa you guys are so lucky!we were about to give you a free meet and greet with blood red shoes

me:what?!haa!haa!(panicking)

then we followed her to the jackD counter to sign in after I registered the form they told us to come at 8 I was pretty exited that time.we walked around the place,brought some meal coupon for drinks.we met our friends and wasting a while til 7.30 JackD crew text me to come cause they arrived sooner than the schedule.they told us rules and else then the time came up to meet them,we followed a crew guy to the backstage tend,I came into the tend,this might sound very lesbo but I really love her,her style,her hair,everything :D,for real LAURA MARY CARTER.i dont know how to tell you but this is exactly the conversation:

me:Hi!(hugged mary,hugged steve which was end with KISSED in his cheek)

HEY GUYS!I KISSED STEVE!HUAAAAAAAA!I KISS HIM FOR REAL!

steve:thanks(smilling)

crew:be fast guys(holding up a slr camera)

me:(posed,and laura put her arm to my shoulder I was like “THIS IS NOT REAL”)

me:could you guys give me a sign?(taking out my shoes)

laura:they’re really nice shoes

me:aaah thankyou!(another panick attact)but could you?please..

laura & steve:sure!

and here’s the pic!

it did felt so fast until they told me to go out,then finally the show ive waited,blood red shoes is finally on stage after half hour sitting across the stage,it was awesome I even lost my voice.then there be a time for 30 seconds to mars that my boyfriend wants to see we’re very exiting back then,jump,shout,sing alot.I remember my awkward moment when people are pretty quiet I shouted “FUCK ME JAREEED!” then they just looked at me in sudden -_- but I dont regret this remembering how hot jared letto is.everybody were having fun,I can even feel the earthquake from enthusiasm,even they werent so good.everything is happened so fast until it ends.We got home at 5 in morning,I’d losing my voice,I was pretty exhausted.

tomorrow is my very first concert date with fzn,we’ll going to see red blood shoes :D 30 STM,we r scientist,and more at event called javarockingland Im praying to god please dont let me ruin this rare moment.this is our perfect plan.

I had always feel worthless,im not pretty,genius,or even rich.but i just thought in every side of the world theres always be a few people that was born to be hated.yeah i was thinking that was i was born to be,to be hate.this is just how the criminal was born from.am i a pessimist?pretty much no.entirely yes.

Mungkin ini adalah posting perdana saya yang menggunakan bahasa indonesia.untuk menutupi capasitas bahasa inggris saya yg bagaikan nasi kucing basi dan memanfaatkan waktu yang sempit mengingat fauzan yang akan menunggu saya pada jam 2 sedangkan saya belum kunjung mandi dengan sukses tercecer di depan laptop dgn sirkulasinya hidup yg sangat lambat.liburan segera berahir.yah berita buruk tidak lebih buruk dari 5 menit waktu saya untuk membaca 2 halaman saja versi asli buku huncback of the notre dame.sekolah dimulai pada hari kamis(hari saya mengumpulkan barang untuk ke singapur esoknya dimana saya tidak merasa sedikitpun antusias) dan tidak mempunyai ide dari mana saya bisa mendapatkan uang saku mengingat ibu yang pelit soal keuangan.hidup saya membosankan mungkin orang orang lain menulis di blognya bagaimana seru kehidupan pribadinya,bagaimana seru mempunyai teman teman dan hal hal lain.saya hanya menulis untuk memproduktifkan diri terhadap waktu luang saya yang sempit.sekian au revoir!

just dye my hair into black with an Indian henna thing.smells like crap but i sprayed my hand sanitizer to soften the smell and it works.my hair looked just the same only darker. I’m trying to read the hunchback of the notre dame(victor hugo classic version)that book is actually half english and half french.it was made me wasting over 5 minutes to finished only 2 pages.my boyfriend gonna pick me up soon,so i gotta go.au revoir tous les!

my boyfriend is a fucking anal sucker haha

just watched a movie “SUPER” was a really really epic story.it is kind of dark comedy movie about guy named frank(rain wilson) who left over by his wife who’s been taken by a drug dealler mafia,he was so desperate until he got vision from holy avenger(a religious super hero who wear yellow tight suit with a cross in his chest)that he was chosen.then he got a kid sidekick ‘boltie’(ellen page) the girl from comicbook store.ellen page was really really funny i laughed my ass so hard!I definietly recommend this to fullfill your holiday time besides spending time masturbating or googling justin bieber hahaha

been a while.no posting.lost so many followers hah.its cool to be back on tumblr and having 2 day without showering.my boyfriend left me for his after graduate private farewell party,but im pretty much enjoying this unproductive holiday at least im not going to school.haha I actually feel like crap.listening to mew,keep posting.